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Friday, September 03, 2004
neurotic
The gospel today was St Luke's rendition of how Simon Peter got 'caught' by Jesus, and the leap of faith Peter took to say "but if you say so, I will". wow. It's a tough one. Everyday, all around us, the many voices outside (and in!) speak, call, shout. To hear Him is already one thing. To LISTEN is the next. Fr Stephen's homily didn't fail to 'hit' me once again; I believe he prays much, and listens. Because only then can we make an impact in others' lives, without God's direction, we'll be groping blindly in the dark, maybe striking luck sometimes, and maybe not.
Fear. It holds us back. We lose. I'm scared. Scared of fear.
And tat, ladies and gentlemen, is wat we call irony. Ha. Ha.
Skeptical me, does anyone noe? Is it a lie when I hide it? Or is it me trying to do my best to keep the ugly part in the dark? Two ends of a spectrum, and I don't know which I'm at.
And tat, ladies and gentlemen,...
I've learnt today, that its easy loving the kids, not so easy with irritating, frustrating adults. But God calls us to love them all the same.
Fear. It holds us back. We lose. I'm scared. Scared of fear.
And tat, ladies and gentlemen, is wat we call irony. Ha. Ha.
Skeptical me, does anyone noe? Is it a lie when I hide it? Or is it me trying to do my best to keep the ugly part in the dark? Two ends of a spectrum, and I don't know which I'm at.
And tat, ladies and gentlemen,...
I've learnt today, that its easy loving the kids, not so easy with irritating, frustrating adults. But God calls us to love them all the same.
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire, sick health
for 369. its 3.17 am now...of course not without some chatting to ease the nite. Thanks matt for the ideas, and your constant support dude...
listening to Jay Chou's lastest, thanks to Adrian Sim :) have to train up my China-'polished' Mandarin, cos the China-born dun have a clue wat I'm saying, not to mention others of likewise species as I. sigh. So I have Ping Guan wif me too...will it work? Probably should have chatted wif Rosa more last year, I wish she's going to be there when I get back. Still havn't come up wif what to say in front of the new-initiates. probably show them how we slit the dotted line and mix our blood in a....nah, tat's too morbid, and bordering on 'haram'. haha kudos to hakim and az.
and so we spill the milk and bite back the tears.
and so we resist the wizard's spell of 'pillar of salt'.
and so we write a thesis on 'The Reason' (Hoobastank).
listening to Jay Chou's lastest, thanks to Adrian Sim :) have to train up my China-'polished' Mandarin, cos the China-born dun have a clue wat I'm saying, not to mention others of likewise species as I. sigh. So I have Ping Guan wif me too...will it work? Probably should have chatted wif Rosa more last year, I wish she's going to be there when I get back. Still havn't come up wif what to say in front of the new-initiates. probably show them how we slit the dotted line and mix our blood in a....nah, tat's too morbid, and bordering on 'haram'. haha kudos to hakim and az.
and so we spill the milk and bite back the tears.
and so we resist the wizard's spell of 'pillar of salt'.
and so we write a thesis on 'The Reason' (Hoobastank).
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