The out-of-this-world gamemaster 

I don't know and I don't wanna know 

We Want You! 

"come let's do the twist baby" Matt looks skeptical. 

Team 1 

You guessed it!

moooooo- li 

guess me guess me! 

I'm too sexy for my hair....David Becks 

Robin of the Dead 

*cheeky grin* 

Marilyn Monroe. trust me. 

"smell my feet Ju" 

right from the STONEage... 

Stefan playing mind-games with the girl he likes 

a big day (when I wasn't expecting one)

dearest dearest dearest dearest

cheryl angel van eddie poon chris diane anthony stefan adrian leonard chan peiling dre chand moli-chand robin matt mabel alex julia stella daryl mum and dad

thanks for the SURPRISE! It was a great big humongous one, the biggest one of my life, I assure you! Thank goodness no one took photos of the gogle-eyed gaping-mouthed initial expression, 'cos I think my heart just stopped when I saw 25 insane people in my living room. ok, insanely kind enough to give me a party that I won't forget. thank you, loads and loads. nothing would have made it better because you ALL were there, from the ones so busy I didn't expect to see (like chan) to the long-standing ones (like dre moli and chand- "it's never gonna to die, it's gonna live, in each of us!") to the best secret-keepers ever who are filled with so much energy they just tear houses down and scare neighbours with carols and games (like the ones I were with 36 hours before and never leaked a word! inclusive of mum and dad)

big hugs to the game-masters and the photographers and the food-lovers (I hope that includes everyone!)

A thousand apologies to those I have not replied to yet in the mail!

Have been preparing to see my supervisor yesterday, and after the meeting went home to sleep for a RECORD (it has to be) of 18 hours! whew.
then! I've just spent the last 3 hours in the city centre, in a mad rush before the shops close at 6.30pm (that's late closing already, due to christmas)
and! managed to get 10 presents at 8 different places! (and nearly had asthma attacks twice)

Therefore, will endevour to reply asap!

Though, you're right. Christmas isn't about sales and shopping and wrapping and giving material things. It's about eating and watching good tv programmes and getting presents. haha! Just kidding. For me it's being with my family.

It's over!

The final lecture, the presentation I spent sleepless nights over, the last 4.30pm departure from uni this year.
That's a term gone by, 10 weeks of nights up, days in, fears and accomplishments.
I'm glad I wasn't alone, and am blessed to have shared these with my fellow comrades, wonderful companions, solitaire-obssessing, gospel-singing friends.

Oddly, even though this marks the beginning of (more?) work towards the January exams, I am relieved.

The adrenaline's still rushing, but I hope to crash tonight.

now that I've come to the point of acceptance (spanning a few years), I actually find it sweet! (",)

Blessed release
From one's own
Self-made manacles
Broken through
Beyond the body
And embrace
Facing up to
mirror-face.

I was in London to watch "And then there were none" at the Gieglud Theatre, West End. My grandfather gave me this Agatha Christie novel when I was 10, and I just had to watch it on stage.

Potty over... 

Narnia at Leicester Square 

Strawberry cheesecake and peppermint tea! 

Lighting up the sky 

At Picadilly Circus 

I don't want

a lot for Christmas

There's just one thing

I need I don't care about the presents

underneath the christmas tree I just want you

for my own More than you could

ever know Make my wish come true

All I want for Christmas

Is

You

Listening to 'All I want for Christmas', Love Actually OST

This is scary.

Like a prophecy from the movies.

Scientists say asteriod on a trajectory towards Earth, impacting in 2036, raising 100 000 times more energy than the Hiroshima bomb.

From The Guardian online: http://www.guardian.co.uk/space/article/0,14493,1660485,00.html?gusrc=rss

Don't feel like going to my seminar later leh...prefer to stay home to finish by the deadline! same difference. besides, it's going to be on Dickens, which even my most esteemed professor said (in reply to those who professed to be fans of Dickens), "I rather prefer literature myself" *with a twinkle in his eye*. By the way, he looks like a lovable Santa Claus. ho ho ho

It's 8.30 am now. 4 hours more to decide.

Not only when the sleigh bells ring

A beautiful song...
From Dr Seuss- How the Grinch Stole Christmas

Where are you Christmas? by Faith Hill

Radix malorum est Cupiditas

Greed is the root of all evil

chilli crab
dim sum
char kway teow
laksa
sashimi
cai tau kuay (hei)
kway chap
hokkien mee
sugar cane juice
soya bean milk

a day of thanksgiving

I couldn't have made it through today without the support and advice from 2 of my good friends.

this is how we overcome *including mandatory jump-jump*
you have turned my mourning into dancing

thank you

I wandered into church today
Self-assured, no need to pray
The seat was silent, dark the berth
Ready to sit my hour's worth

Candles lit a lone tall mast
Turning as the aisle I passed,
She spoke gently when I drew near
"Why, do you need anything dear?"

With that, defences fell, men jumped ship
The cannon fodder took a dip
Sinking straight to bottom sea
Leaving an empty shell of me

Then faintly at first and stronger soon
The altar light grew brighter noon
Dazzling until the light made dark
Everything that surrounded the ark

Perhaps saying that I can find no words to continue to express what I gained this evening is a poor excuse, and perhaps I may find them in future, but at the moment I must say that struggling is tiring, and blessed consolation brings rest. Praise God that He will not desert us. Praise God that you may experience Him.

darkness falls

It's too dark to see....But if I don't walk now I'll lose the way.
Paralysis. Unbelief. Immobile. Fear. Too dark....

should I have been on the other path? took a right back there?
been more careful about signs? anxiously

promise. promise me.
dying to rise
encamped around
overflowing liqueur
kingdom of heaven

on I run
running away
from the place of the skull

then, lightning. that lights the sky
a fire in my heart
burning etching branding
your light

And I can run away no more.

this love song

wanna live my life with you
wanna give all that I do
wanna have each day so close to you
and love you more and more

can you see the blessings? I feel it; it's more than I've dreamt of, more than I could think of asking for. I would have asked for others to accept me, but you gave me an acceptance greater. I would have asked for joy from, but you gave me joy in.

I thought happiness would come in little packages that are soon diminished, consumed. Now you show me they are merely pieces of a puzzle, slowly coming to a beautiful whole.
My Jesus.

Life lessons I have been endowed with after 2 years of studying overseas:

1. How to appreciate celery (not enjoy, mind you)

2.Being more tolerant towards wholemeal bread
(it's all you've got when your fridge is empty)

Now it's time to do the same thing we do everyday, Pinky.....

Perhaps forgiving yourself is the hardest yet.

to you girl, who seems unhappy in that last entry...don't give up.

Don't give up on yourself. Being a leader has meant to expect more of others and of yourself, and when we fail to meet up to those standards: we're only human. carry on; greater success will come through the trudging.

to you girl, who is not well. don't let criticism eat you; use it or throw it off and away. you know you are giving your all; even if things fail anyway, believe in yourself because your abilities have not at all been rendered invalid. It is not you who failed, but the situation. may you find solace in your quiet moments

to you girl, who feel the anger and hurt; don't stab yourself. Other's actions does not equate to you being unlovable. Don't believe that for a second. Just look at your gifts blooming!

I will pray for your grandpa, for great peace and faith.

in the spotlight 

she's goin' in!
Mel: "she looks so pretty!"
Matt: "nah...she knew people going to take photo, so she put make-up..."

(Jo, you can fire him now)

Osama with a make-over. VS Bushy-hair 

all hard at work! alex looks so blur! poor dude...must be really tired... 

Leicester
-1ºCFreezing Fog
Wind: S at 6 km/h
Humidity: 93%

if only Man merely needs 3 hours of sleep everyday

~written at 5.33am

my dad took photos of Christ the King's Feastday Funfair yesterday and I got to see them!
Looking at them made me feel...so excited, as though I was right there with YLM...caught a glimpses of Alex's painted face, Eddie hard at work, Adrian Ant Stefan Addison and Rachel on stage performing (congrats for 2nd place!), Iggy K at the dunking machine, Moarie and food stall, Julian and Fr. S. on stage, Fr. P., Mabel, Shannon, Peter, Joann about to be dunked, my mum selling drinks...I can almost hear the bustle! Must have been a tiring day, as it usually is, but the whole set-up looked great! Of course there were many (unidentifiable) people in CTK-Youth tees *hee hee* I wannnnnt!

7.27am. Havn't slept, and there's the moon still high on the 7 sky. view from out my window. draw a breath of crisp fresh air.