catharsis

A falling drop into the ocean; what does it mean?
To join the pool of groaning humanity
What difference can one man make
Against the overwhelming sea?

Sadness is like a still pond
That hides the incessant trickling
Of tributaries; rills that spill
And feed the endlessness.

By that pond, a lily blooms
ever-slowly inching, bursting
a fight to the finish, thriving on waves
that lap up gurgling gurgling at its feet

I think I'm stuck somewhere in March. Middle of march to be exact, because I keep thinking it's not yet into the 20s of March, and so it must be in the teens, and still slogging at the first essay such that the end seems far far away.

Yesterday my brother was telling me about an equation by Stevens (some phsysicist) which can calculate the human perception of something with relation to what it actually is in reality. Like pain, or a burn, or a cut, or a scream; how much more or less we place importance to it than it actually is in reality.
It's called Stevens' Power Law... this guy stevens power lor...

So let me place an equation on my first statement of being stuck somewhere in march:
Continuum - Time
Exponent - 0.01
Stimulus Condition - Just before essay deadline (approx. 14 days before)

dawn of the

Woke up this morning to an attack of the C-roaches!
Luckily, major mum had just got a fresh supply of ammunition from N.T.U.C., so I took out the heavily loaded semi-automatic Mortein21 and shot down all forms of those crawling undead.
9 casualties, none from the England team.

Being lost in the constructions of structures, I forgot about the little fall of rain, music like a soft breeze, echoes from the trembling heart.

It's cold, and I sit at my desk with a sleeping bag wrapped around my legs, like a competitor preparing for a potato-sack race.

in coherence

"I like to be left alone"

A simple statement, that can mean so many things. Some of the various ways include:

1. Simply, the speaking subject enjoys solitude.

2. More likely, the subject is speaking to an Other and is implying through this hint that he would like to be left alone. It is what is left out of the statement that is important.

3. The subject is a neurotic one, as our civilisation is, such that he makes friends only to find that he often loses them. This occurs usually through means which appear beyond the subject's control, such as betrayal, adultery, jealousy, greed, and even death. However the cause is not an external one that belongs to the other, but an unconscious (masochistic) desire to be left alone, since he appears to gain pleasure from being proven correct from in an assumption (such as 'people are never reliable' or 'men/women are jerks/slags' etc.). The pleasure overrides the displeasure gained in the seperation from the other, and all this happens outside of the subject's consciousness. In the end he feels like a victim; yet all this has precipitated from his own hand (or, rather, mind).

Refer to life for more information.
Have a nice day!
=)


added at 6.20pm:
Roman Jakobson paraphrased: Human speech never merely transmits a message, it always also self-reflectively asserts the basic symbolic pact between the communicating subjects.

Therefore, point 1 is eliminated.